Welcome to Season 2 Episode 17 of Triggers and Spiritual Medicine podcast with host, Laura Bonetzky-Joseph. In this episode, we decided to do an energy forecast for the 2023 year with three key takeaways in the end.
2022 in Review
What did we learn & how are we moving forward
2023 Numerology
2023 Energies
Tarot Card Energies
Power of Crow/Raven Magic
Three in numerology
“0” in numerology
Surrender the Ego
Plus 3 Key takeaways
ABOUT TRIGGERS & SPIRITUAL MEDICINE PODCAST:
Real talk. Let’s address the elephant in the room to the growing “sickness” in our society, address root issues and provide sustainable solutions.
We hope by addressing the intersectionality and connect the dots like a web of many of society’s challenges, we can help others understand the trauma infection that impacts all areas of life – addiction, domestic violence, racism, homelessness, sexual abuse, chronic health issues, cancer, environmental issues, climate change and more.
In this NEW collaborative program, we hope by highlighting these infected areas and what they share in common, a new perspective of solutions, healing, and resolutions can be birthed.
Each episode addresses a certain trigger while offering the spiritual medicine with at least 3 tips or actionable steps our listeners can take and implement.
Vision: To break the unrecognized endemic of unresolved unhealed trauma & create sustainable systems for recovery, healing & empowerment.
Mission: To help others rediscover the power that lies within and to find that treasure buried in the depths of the shadows. To help them become their own superhero.
Here is the numerology and cards for the week to reflect upon. Plus, energy updates starting a quick summary. I will go into details below.
Astrology:
Mercury Retrograde 1/14/22-2/4/22
Venus retrogrades til 1/29/22
Uranus direct 1/18/22 (TODAY)
Full Moon 1/17/22 (Yesterday)
Cosmology
CME’s and Solar flares trigging Geomagnetic storm 1/16 and 1/18
Numerology
for 2022 = 6
Today: 16/7
#CardsForTheWeek:
Surrender Stubbornness: When I pulled this card in relation the numerology and energies as of right now, I heard a spirit whisper of “surrender resistance. Surrender the resistance of the flow of change and of natural laws”
“If you’re tensing up or taking a rigid stance about something, gently observe yourself and become more yielding. This will help you communicate more lovingly with others and yourself.”
Raven: All about Magic and owning your power.
Nine of Cups: Satisfaction, Abundance, Reaping Rewards.
What does this all mean?
So today, we are coming off a VERY powerful full moon amplified by a geomagnetic storm from an incoming solar flare from the sun.
Some of you may have experienced sleep disturbances or elevated #triggers as we are being guided to surrender to the natural laws of the universe.
Mercury went retrograde this past Friday, 1/14/22 and Venus is still in retrograde to the end of the month on 1/29/22. Mercury will go direct on 2/4/22. This affects everything relational especially with self as well as anything regarding communication.
You might even feel a “tug o war” going on with the desire to rest, sleep, hibernate, organize, and plan mashing against the sudden urge to “get things done” or take action as Uranus went direct today.
Let me know in the comments below if this resonates with you as I do not know if what I post, or share helps you in any way.
Today is about cycles and flow. What cycles are you completing so you can move forward this spring, and how are you navigating that flow.
The recent solar storm activity just amplifies what already is, but if you are empathic or if you have health issues such as autoimmune disorders, mental health issues, or cardiac condition, you may have felt this. This could also trigger sleep issues such as overly exhausted yesterday but insomnia last night for those who are sensitive.
Are you resisting?
Are you making excuses?
Or are you pulling out your paddles in this grand flood of change and just steering however the Universe guides you?
The Raven is here to remind you of the magic you have inside you that maybe you have forgotten or ignored.
The Raven is a guide in the shadows and all that stuff you might feel lost. The raven will show you the way as the raven is between both worlds.
The raven also reveals a TRUTH you may not have seen before or even considered. Be sure to check your analytical brain or ego at the door and listen to the gut instincts.
Be sure your instincts are NOT coming from a place of triggers or trauma, but from a pure place.
The white artic fox in the 9 of cups card is a reminder of adaptability and purity.
The numerology is amplifying the raven energy and highlighting the shadow aspects that need to be resolved and dealt with – clearing out the mental, emotional, spiritual, physical clutter from your life so you are able to SEE clearly and OWN your power.
The 9 of cups is here to remind you that all this hard work will NOT go unrewarded in all areas of your life if you do THIS hard work that is asked of you.
This is a test of faith and a shift in your beliefs systems that are outdated.
Above all, this is a time to pull out your life raft.
Do NOT try to control others based on YOUR belief systems while ignoring another who may NOT share the same philosophy – This pandemic is an example of this.
Be open to ask questions. Be inquisitive.
Practice MORE empathy, compassion and understanding.
The news, political systems, Wall Street are all functioning from a place of ego.
Step away and tap into the wisdom of the soul as the soul knows YOUR truth.
Go there.
Be well my friends.
As always, your comments and feedback mean the world to me, and these posts are designed to guide you, but your feedback helps me help you more effectively.
We will talk about what has been happening w/ a summary in the areas of
Numerology
Mercury Retrograde
Mars Retrograde
Recent Space Weather events
Recent electrical events on Earth
Tomorrow’s Full Moon
How Halloween factors in all this
AND 5 TIPS on where to focus NOW
My goal with this post is to provide some energetic psychic insight to what is happening from as pure of a state as possible while giving spiritual guidance on how to navigate these polarizing energies while balancing any triggers we may encounter along the way.
Today we chat about these new moon energies, what it all means, 3 things we are learning, & 3 tips to navigate through it all into 2020 & the new decade.
New Moon in Capricorn – What does it mean?
New moons are about new
beginnings and fresh starts in general
This new moon is setting the
stage to prepare us the incoming new year and new decade in #4 year in
numerology.
This is BIG
This is about change,
letting go, and renewal.
Change is a constant in the grand scheme of the Universe and 2019 was a BIG year for change and transformation to prepare us for a powerful 2020. I will go into this in a separate video.
In this video you will learn:
3 things this new moon is teaching us
3 Tips to navigate these energies
Plus, upcoming event updates
Reminders
I do not do astrology and I am NOT an astrologist
I am sensitive to energy
I am a natural born multi-generational psychic medium
I am an amateur cosmology lover as I understand the science and affects of space weather on our very cores.
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First, I would like to thank you for supporting me in my journey doing what I was put on this earth plane to do.
It has been an honor and pleasure to serve you and our community, and I look forward to continuing to grow, expand, collaborate, serve, and evolve together as we move into 2019.
Here is some insights to help you navigate you through this post:
What 2018 Taught Us
Highlights of 2018
What I Personally Experienced in 2018
Death and Dying
Understanding the Role of Trauma in Our Lives. Exposing It. Healing It’s Roots.
For those who are spiritually awake or began to experience this awakening this year, we understood all we experienced needed to be experienced for our soul’s growth and as part of the greater expansion of the Universe.
I have said it before and I will say it again … healing sucks, but ohhhhh so worth it. When we dig deep, and heal what is buried in the depths of our shadows of our subconscious minds, cellular memory of our body, and souls, we raise our frequency and vibration. We also free ourselves of all the resistance and blocks that were suppressing our gifts and light and step into our power of who we are as soul beings.
And we did just that – We got deep. We got real. We went into the darkness of our souls to heal and expand.
Here are some highlights of 2018:
The #MeToo movement continued to gain momentum as the veil continued to lift. With the divine feminine energy that has been rising, no wonder we are seeing this also rise up, and will continue to see it rise up in 2019. I suspect a few surprises in store for 2019. Don’t be shocked is all I will have to say.
There are some who are resisting to dig deep in their own shadows and heal whether it be out of fear and/or complacency creating clashes with those awake and doing their spiritual work. What we have seen play out across the globe in the environment, climate, and politics that mirrored this.
We recognized that what was “broken” in our lives – health, relationships, job, etc, was the result of either something unresolved or unhealed buried in our shadows or following path of ego spiritually bypassing our soul’s growth and healing.
We are understanding clearer what it means to stand in our power and live authentically unapologetically. This energy will amplify in 2019 for those doing their spiritual work. So hold on tight.
Our senses, especially empaths, became heightened and more sensitive. Some even found an increase sensitivity to toxic foods, chemicals, and medications.
Many experienced spiritual crisis or healing crisis that may have baffled the medical communities. I am not surprised as the medical system, although is wonderful in many ways, is designed to treat symptoms not root causes. It was a surge in these root causes (many stemming from old wounds or trauma) that are rising to be healed and cleared. This is where we have seen a surge of alternative therapies succeeding where traditional medicine is failing. I feel this trend will also continue into 2019.
The presence of dragons has never been stronger as it is right now. I know there are many out there who are feeling this too, and there are many who will disagree. The dragon energy is a powerful one to harness and a powerful force to work with moving into 2019.
What I Personally Experienced in 2018
“The day science begins to study non-physical phenomena, it will make more progress in one decade than in all the previous centuries of its existence. ” – Nikola Tesla
Death and Dying
I received a profound message from Spirit in the fall of 2017, while preparing for 2018. I heard a whisper from Spirit to keep the early part of the summer free from commitments as I would be dealing with loss.
This triggered waves of anxiety as there were several people and pets around me seriously ill and some I knew were terminal with cancer. Oddly enough, I was also triggered with waves of solace and peace as I’ve witnessed how the spirit world works in mysterious but beautiful ways.
So in the end of June of 2018, I experienced the loss of four individuals within 2 weeks. I was blessed and honored to have been a part of the end of life spiritual care and assisting in transitions of two of these beautiful souls.
What I experienced assisting several individuals in 2018 in the transition process is that death can be celebrated if not beautiful. Death doesn’t mean life ends or it’s over. It just means transformation from one energy vibration to another … often times our loved ones in spirit will leave us “signs” to let us know they are around.
Understanding the Role of Trauma in Our Lives. Exposing It. Healing It’s Roots.
The work I have been doing with trauma this year has shot up exponentially in ways I have found the traditional medical community ill-equipped to truly help these individuals experiencing what I considered an awakening that triggered a spiritual crisis.
The kinds of experiences I witnessed this year needless to say blew me away. My ability to expand grew as did the experience to bare witness to all sorts of incredible breakthroughs of so many brave amazing souls.
What we learned in 2018 is that much of our physical and/or mental issues whether a headache, tooth pain, sinus infection, IBS symptom, need for a knee replacement, need for hysterectomy, back pain etc was much more than what was presented on the surface. There were deep seeded layers upon layers subconscious wounds of old traumas (personal, generational, and/or past life) trying to be released.
Once we understood the connection, we shifted focus to treating the root cause vs the symptom with a team approach including family, therapists, doctors, significant others, domestic violence support groups, and much more in order to become “whole” again.
What we witnessed at the National Domestic Violence Conference I attended in September 2018, is that we must stand on our conviction. Plus, integrating ancient wisdoms, traditions, and healing practices as part of helping survivors of abuse was refreshing to finally see. To witness the power of an 11 yo girl stand in her full authentic power was inspiring. That being government funded is another way of patriarchal control preventing deep healing from taking place for survivors.
Since then, the VAWA has since lapsed and many programs are now in jeopardy. It will be interesting to see how this all plays out for 2019.
Every Day Miracles:
“But I think the real miracle is not to walk either on water or in thin air, but to walk on earth. Every day we are engaged in a miracle which we don’t even recognize. A blue sky, white clouds, green leaves, the black curious eyes of a child, our own two eyes. All is a miracle.” – Thich Nhat Hanh
We witness miracles every day, but many times in our current society, we take them for granted and focus on the adrenaline rush of the “BIG” moments.
There are miracles every day from our body’s ability to self generate electricity to fight off cancer to transform the air we breath into nourishment for the soul to the earth’s ability to ward off harmful rays of the sun to the sun stimulating plants to grow and our bodies to manufacture valuable vitamins such as Vitamin D. Here are some miracles that happened in 2018:
To have a client who has been unwell for months with possible flair up from a degenerative autoimmune neurological condition, tell you that they can’t remember the last time they had function and mobility in their hand ever like they did after 2 sessions, and I was like WOW. They also informed me that the injection they get to treat this disease costs over $200k per dose.
To have an end stage terminal client unable to swallow their own saliva preventing them from eating for days, and after one focused session, that ability returned and would give a 3 day relief and ability to live out their final days with quality and dignity, before another session had to be administered. There was NO traditional medical treatment available to assist with this issue at that time
To watch my first ever local bald eagle circling over my office. When noticed, he flew off, and was later the sighting was validated in one of the major local newspapers. For those who follow me and understand, THIS was a great omen and sign.
To be able to participate in the transition of a loved one into spirit along side of a Catholic priest was a first for me and a beautiful experience. And in 2018, I was privileged with assisting in the transitions of three individuals this year,.
To being asked to be a guest speaker and medium at a local church and after the service, to receive not one but many beautiful letters from one special lady and this made me smile. Miracles happen when we least expect them.
This year I grew too along with all of you. I continued to work on the shadow aspects of myself and called in trust sources to assist me in the process.
I increased my own self care regimens and took a break from anything that would cause over-stimulation – tv, public places, computers, etc.
I sat in some powerful sacred circles with some amazing individuals who embody this spiritual walk.
I was also fortunate to study with Tadao Yamaguchi in April for my continued teacher Jikiden Reiki training.
Our programs also expanded. We offered 2 women’s retreats this past year where we dug deep and journeyed into self discovery in a community of sisterhood in a safe supported sacred container. We will are looking at collaborations to expand this program for 2019. Stay tuned.
It is a new year and a time for new beginnings to manifest.
How well you stand in your truth and authenticity and how well you respond to chaos externally will determine how well 2019 will go for you. Let’s look at how.
Insight into 2019:
Lessons and Themes for 2019
More Miracles
Challenges For Many Still
Numerology Aspect
6 tips to guide you in 2019
Lessons and/or Themes For 2019
I feel 2019 will be an amplified version of 2018 depending on where you are at in your spiritual journey, and could prove to be a difficult one for some.
Heighten sensitivities will increase.
What will be important as we move through 2019 is how well grounded or centered we can be.
“Master the calm within the storm” – Buddha. It will be important to be in a place of stillness regardless of what turbulence is around us.
The divine feminine will continue to rise shifting frequency and vibration.
Dragon energy and other forces like it will intensify. Dragon has connected with me personally, but it may be another force that connects with you being phoenix, eagle, angels, etc.
Personal power and authenticity will ring strong this year. 2018 prepped us for deeper work in this area. Be ready to dig deep in the shadows and shine in your power.
The major theme is really about being the best piece of the larger puzzle of the universe. No competition. No grass is greener on the other side type themes, but more about you and being best version of you.
More Miracles
I feel miracles about to happen on so many fronts and dimensions. This #metoo movement has restored much in me that I thought was lost forever. Many of you have been hearing me talk about for months regarding the paradoxes, the silver linings, and shifts of focus.
Many of us have worked hard and diligent in cleaning up our vibration, facing our shadow selves, and choosing to live more authentically.
I see the personal storms clearing and the sun returning. This is the perfect time to plant those heirloom seeds you been wanting to plant.
Challenges for Many Still
If you have not worked on your shadows aka your junk over the past couple years, this year could prove to be challenging.
Healing the past is crucial to moving forward. I have seen a surge of “old traumas” over the past few years surface and amplifying with each year passing – whether our own, generational or past life.
We are at a crossroads now. We have become a culture who has normalized abuse and violence in many ways. So when it comes to things we did to others or things that may have happened to us in the past, we think time will heal all wounds, and brush it under the carpet.
Some of us may have seen ourselves do this. We may have even “gaslighted” ourselves in the process.
In order to move forward, you must heal and accept your authentic true self. No one ever said healing was a pleasant journey, but it is a worthwhile one that can lead us to our soul purpose and path.
As a matter of fact, healing can down right be painful and exhausting giving glimpses of questioning life and our faith. However, somehow, we manage to push through the barriers and search for that rainbow at the end of the storm that just wreaked havoc in our lives.
It is through our greatest adversities where we find the greatest gifts.
The hard human lessons for this year will include:
More transitions from physical form to spiritual form. Some physical bodies may be to weak to move forward. Others may have a soul that is too high of a frequency for the physical body to handle. Others may choose to exit and return in a different vessel.
Numerology Aspect
This year is a three year in numerology (2+0+1+9 = 12/3). I always associate 12 with karma. This year will focus on a LOT of deeper issues and stuff especially in the realms of trauma, justice, and oppression. Some may not even be your own. It may be generational (can go back up to 7 generations) or it could be past life stuff.
The number three is about creative self expression, communication and is connected to the Ascended Masters such as Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, Archangels.
Just as in 2018, the concept of self care, self acceptance, self love will increase momentum in 2019. You will be forced to look within and understand the relationship you have with your own soul and inner guidance system will be a huge determining factor on success and your definition of success.
The number three is connected to:
past, present, future
birth, life, death
beginning, middle, end
divinity number
number connected to magic – “three times a charm”
The three Borromeam Rings are three rings that are interlocked. If any single ring is removed, the two remaining rings will fall apart.
primary colors – red, yellow, blue
The Triple Moon/The Triple Goddess. It shows her three aspects as maiden, mother and crone.
Gemini is the third astrological sign of the Zodiac. (May 21 – June 21)
Number three is the number of Jupiter.
In the Tarot, three is the card of the Empress which is symbolic for creation and growth.
Great Pyramid of Giza: There are three larger pyramids side by side mathematically aligned in position to Orion’s Belt. There are also three smaller pyramids nearby. The ancients emulated these shapes found in nature using threefold and sixfold symmetry.
The number three is a big transformational number too. Nikola Tesla understood this better than most.
“If you knew the magnificence of the three, six, nine, you would have a key to the universe.” – Nikola Tesla
Nikola Tesla was a genius and superstitious. He understood the magic of these numbers and the universal language of pattern aka numbers found in life, galaxies, evolution, sacred geometry, and almost all natural systems which are actually devoid of the numbers 3, 6, 9. He understood that 3 + 3 + 3 = 9. Nine is a number connected to the secrets to unlocking the mysteries of the Universe.
So this is another BIG year in numerology terms. This will be focused on digging deeper into the shadow aspects of ourselves, stepping forward in our authenticity and power, personal transformation and letting go of expectations of people, places and things for 2019.
Are you ready?
Here are 6 tips to guide you in 2019:
These tips are pretty much the same as I wrote about for 2018, but will be amplified for 2019. The concept of living more authentically in 2019 is crucial.
Practice the art of presence. Some refer to this practice also as mindfulness. Be aware of your thoughts, actions, and reactions. Adjust as necessary to bring you back to the present moment.
Listen to the wisdom of the body. When we build a relationship with our bodies and listen to its wisdom, we are given insight and healing to things before that may have left us feeling stuck like a hamster on a wheel.
Raise your vibration. By being more mindful of our thoughts and how it affects our wellbeing and life, we can become more aware of how to shift. When we listen to the wisdom of the body, we become more aware of how our thoughts physically, emotionally and spiritually affect us. By focusing on gratitude, we raise our vibration. Sickness and disease live on lower vibrational energies.
Self Care. This has been a theme than began in 2015, but really increased its momentum as witnessed in 2018. Self care needs to no longer be at the bottom of the list, but rather at the top of the list. You and your loved ones will thank you in the end. Not to mention, you set a prime example of caring for yourself in a loving and compassionate way to your children. What a gift!
Rise Up. Act. This is time to get involved in a social justice project. The energies have not been more supported in this area since I began my personal journey in 2005. I am excited to us all become more empowered and living more authentically in our truth.
As always, I am here to help you illuminate your soul, guide you on your path, assist you in removing toxicity, and restore wholeness in your life.
I am available for private sessions, groups, speaking appearances, and more. Contact me for more information or to schedule a private session.
Happy New Year to you and yours. In the meantime, be gentle with yourself, and master riding these waves of change.
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Are you ready to manifest? Create something magnificent?
The new moon is a perfect time to hit that reset button and open yourself up to new beginnings.
Here are some tips to guide you:
New Moon Affirmations:
I AM divinely filled and supported.
I shine my light and confidently in the night shattering all darkness that arises.
I AM manifesting all the good that aligns with my soul purpose.
I invite abundance and prosperity into my life.
My soul steps forward guiding me through this journey.
And so it is …
New Moon Intentions:
Watch your thoughts for like a genie in a bottle would say, your wish is my command. It’s manifestation time and don’t forget to write your prosperity checks too.
The New Moon is the perfect time to manifest new things into your life. This is also a perfect time to write yourself a New Moon Prosperity Check, which serve as a tool we can use to create more abundance in our lives.
You don’t necessarily have to believe the check itself will work when you write it. What do you have to lose? Just try it, and be open. You just might be surprised at the results with the increased prosperity and abundance in some area of your life. Remember, abundance in itself is not always financial.
However, by writing your new moon prosperity check, you become more attune to all the possibilities that can happen.
New Moon Prosperity Check Instructions:
There are many ways to write your New Moon Prosperity Check. You can use a check from your check book, or use the check below.
Key: Write your Prosperity Check within 24 hours after each New Moon.
From your checkbook:
Feel throughtout your whole body and in your heart with the intention for something of great prosperity and abundance to happen.
In the ‘Date’ area, write ‘Now’.
In ‘Pay to the Order of’, write your name.
In the dollar amount, write ‘Paid in Full’. You may also write a specific dollar amount that you have in mind if you choose instead that you feel is attainable in 30 days.
Sign the Check ‘The Universe’. You can also sign it ‘God’, ‘Your Angel’, ‘The Law of Abundance’, or whatever you are comfortable with.
In the ‘Memo’ area, write ‘Thank You’
Place the check in a safe place with intention to bring more prosperity and financial balance into your life. Then, forget about it as you just turned over your intention to the Universe. Don’t worry or think about the ‘how’. The Universe will take it from there.
It is important to reflect as much positive energy as possible. Please be mindful that if you are currently in a dire distressed state, this process will work, but more time will be needed. So it is important to visualize the end result. Visualize how you will feel … Feel the sensations of happiness and gratitude flow through your veins when you receive such a generous amount of money. Believe it to be possible.
Remember that abundance is so much more than money, and comes in many forms. Here are some examples:
Perhaps a coworker invites you out to lunch and unexpectedly pays.
Perhaps something came to you “out of the blue”.
Perhaps you are talking with a friend and he/she offers you some valuable pearls of wisdom regarding some area of your life.
Perhaps a neighbor stops by to offer assistance with some home maintenance or project that you’ve been struggling with.
Perhaps something you have been wanting is suddenly gifted to you.
Above all, be GRATEFUL for ALL that comes into your life. Just try it, and see what abundance awaits you.
You can burn the check from the previous month as you thank The Universe for all the miracles, prosperity, and abundance you received. The best time to burn your prosperity checks in on one of the upcoming full moons. Make sure you always express your gratitude for receiving prosperity and abundance in your life while the check is burning.
Remember, everything is energy and energy is abundant and unlimited! So enjoy it, be thankful, and stay positive!
Laura at the San Diego Zoo (c) 2016 All Rights Reserved
As we close out the year, we can sit back and reflect on all the growth and changes we have made throughout the year. As difficult as the year has been for many, we are, nonetheless, still here for a reason. If you are reading this, you were meant to.
So right now we are at the completion of 2016, and with it our last period of mercury retrograde which so many people look at and dread. Everything is a matter on how you choose to react and perceive things. I choose to work with these energies for what they are intended for such as what I call the “re” effect like reflection, redoing, readjustment, relaxation, revamping, realignment, repairing, etc. I have personally been reflecting all month on where I was, where I am, what work I still have to do, and where I am going.
All year we have been met with some very exciting times for soul and human growth, combined with what may appear as extreme smack downs. No one ever said healing was a pleasant journey, but it is a worthwhile one that can lead to all of what your soul desires.
As a matter of fact, healing can down right be painful and exhausting giving glimpses of questioning life and our faith. However, somehow, we manage to push through the barriers and search for that rainbow at the end of the storm that just wreaked havoc in our lives. It is through our greatest adversities where we find the greatest gifts.
Just like the life of the caterpillar that transforms into the beautiful butterfly, the journey in the cocoon is quite ugly. Yet, the caterpillar still chooses to cocoon and continue onto the journey.
Can you relate to this at all so far? If you are unsure if this makes sense, let me elaborate through my personal experience and story and hope it helps give you some clarity.
The Northern Harrier Laura captured while visiting Cape Cod in August of 2016. (c) 2016 All Rights reserved.
MY STORY:
When this year began, I was excited about the path I was leading, but suddenly I was met with what my human self aka ego would perceive as extreme setbacks with the surprise of not only an ending, but severing of several very close relationships, one being with my children. This was extremely difficult for me and made me reevaluate, question, and at times beg for divine intervention to help me move past the crap that I had endured especially in regards to a previous abusive 10 year marriage that ended 10 years ago, but his abusive pursuits only stopped in the last 2 years.
It was hard, and many of my writings and public speeches discussed some these experiences not to air my stuff, but to help others who may be experiencing similar know they are not alone and what to do. As I continued to release, let go, continued my meditation and reiki practice, and work with my divine team, my faith was slowly being restored.
My experiences this past January were far from glorifying, but outright painful as I was forced to look at all the painful traumas in this life, generationally, and karmicly all at the same time. With all that I knew and all my training to date, I was not sure I would make it to be honest.
My physical body began to amplify some disturbing symptoms from:
Sleep issues
Extreme irregular menses
Extreme almost hemorrhagic uterine bleeding
Re-emergence of PTSD symptoms such as flashbacks, fear, worry, nightmares, and more.
Severe pelvic pain and lower back pain
Ringing in my ears
Weight gain
Severe anxiety
Severe fatigue
Vocal strains
Bizarre instances of choking
Fluttering in heart area
Periods of inability to move
These are just some of what I experienced to name a few. All of the doctors could not explain the cause of my symptoms. However, my divine team kept reassuring me that things will begin to improve by mid-June. I work both in the spiritual realm, but also the holistic health realm with a background in western healthcare. So when I go to a western medical doctor, I already have a clue as to the cause of my symptoms, being a combination of spiritual ascension symptoms as well as adrenal stress from years of PTSD fight or flight. However, my goal is to try to get my western medical teams to prove me wrong.
(c) 2016 Laura Healing With Spirit
So needless to say, as the months went on, I stayed on the path best I could as instructed by my divine team since my western medical team could not find a cause for any of my variety of symptoms. The only treatment was a hysterectomy and medications to mask the cause or numb the cause that they did not know was the issues. All my tests to that point have been negative.
By mid-May, my lower pelvic and back pain escalated as well as my bleeding where I bled heavily for over 30 days straight so much so I hemorrhaged a few days prior to me flying out for my continued Jikiden Reiki training. I sought out medical attention and had physical exam, blood work and ultrasound. All NORMAL.
The day after, my symptoms began to improve. That date was key and my spiritual guides reminded me of the significance because I began doubting that things would improve by mid-June. How could they if I am seemingly getting worse? That date in May was the anniversary of a very traumatic event. My physical body was trying to release it. It just needed my help emotionally, mentally and spiritually to help it do so.
I knew once I went out for my training program, things might get a little worse if I was right all along that this is a spiritual cleansing and karmic healing. And it did. So much so that my teacher instructed me to see a Tibetan doctor known for treating the Dali Lama. I did as requested. For the first time in years, a doctor confirmed my suspicions, but recommended additional dietary and herbal supplement changes on top on my routines.
So like everything else, things came in waves. With each wave, I did my best to do some introspection as to what is coming to the surface to be let go of. Some things have been easier to release than others. That is our human side, but especially the traumatized human side fearful of change despite what you already know.
My spiritual practice and personal life have been significantly improved. The quality of individuals of who I surround myself with have improved. Some of the things I have been working on for over 10-11years have finally manifested. So it appeared that I was finally at home stretch.
Cape Cod with Laura communing in nature 2016
Not
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So just before the holiday, my small dog that I use as a therapy dog was attacked by a domestic dog. On top of this, I was hit with the massive cosmic energies that were bombarding the Earth plane since Thanksgiving which zapped me energetically as I was forced into slow motion for a few days. Again, the cosmic shifting forced me to address old stuff and strong emotions like anger that had risen for the first time in many many years. At the time I did not realize this, but later understood that if anger emerged, that was a very old emotion. This means I am closer than I realize to where I need to be.
In regards to the dog attack, the irony here is the night before we came in contact with a coyote, but no incidence. We have come in contact with a coyote by itself at least a dozen times and on 2 occasions with a pack, with no incidence in recent years. I have chosen to learn to live in harmony with these magical beings that some like to call vermin. I am not naïve as I take precautions when I am out especially at night. It starts with awareness and vigilance. I do not fear the coyote so it does not smell fear on me. I one time chased one with my dog in my arms just to let him know who’s the alpha dog around here.
So I was stunned that what appeared to be a nice domestic dog would just attack and rip my dog’s head open. However, then I remind myself the state of the cosmic energies and planetary alignment. So instead of getting mad or upset at that moment, I chose to reflect and even felt bad for the other dog as to what happened to it for it to feel the need to attack especially to attack a dog used as a therapy dog.
At one point, I was extremely emotional wondering if she would need surgery to repair a salivary gland as she began to make a turn for the worse the day after Christmas. That day I began a regimen of adding turmeric to her food, reiki, community prayers. Within two days, her wound is suddenly improved and no surgery required as of yet. So what is the lesson here this time? What is it that I am supposed to learn?
When I asked that question to my divine team as I was leaving the surgeons office, I heard “magic” and “miracles”. Sometimes these setbacks although can be very exhausting, labor intensive, and draining, forces you to stick to what you’ve learned and trained for all these years since you left your abuser finally in 2006. This was a validation of the power of holistic treatments and community prayer.
Now I filled you with all of the “what went wrong” scenarios. What went right? When I spoke about my challenges publicly, I occasionally spoke about the affects of the changing energies on the human body especially with those inflicted with trauma and how to deal with it.
The bald eagle Laura captured off of Parsons Beach in Maine in September 2016. (c) All Rights Reserved.
During my big event in January, I had countless people come up to me to tell me how inspired they are and I deepened their understandings in their own lives. Later, when I spoke about some of my own traumas and what I did holistically and spiritually to heal,I will never forget the young man who if I were to judge looked like he walked straight out of a gang. I was scared that day to talk about a subject matter of a trauma I never talked about before, but spirit kept insisting to do. So, I did. This young man approached me afterwards and told me he could not thank me enough. He just went to an AA meeting a few days prior and disclosed some of the traumas he endured for the first time and by witnessing my strength, gave him courage to stay clean and gave him hope.
I have countless emails, feedbacks, and more that I have received over the year from so many people, that it made what I was doing so worth while and reassuring that I was and am on the right path even when I doubted myself. By talking about my journey and sharing it, I was keeping it real. I was keeping it authentic.
Other amazing things happened in moments of the divine such as experiences with hawk, bald eagle, osprey, coyote, and more. The messages were profound and reassuring.
Lessons of 2016:
So for 2016, we close out a chapter that primarily focused on the previous 10 years. This year I was taught to have a little more faith and trust since it was stripped from me, and each of these events were difficult, but also reassuring that things are happening for a higher purpose. This is what I learned:
To take my power back from especially abusive, narcissistic, sociopathic individuals. And I did not do it the way the human logical brain would expect you to do it either. My explanation on that will come at another time.
Help from the divine does happen, and many times leave you signs to let you know they are there or as confirmations you are on the right track.
How well we partner with our soul.
How well we surrender and trust in the divine.
How well we let go of control of the things that are making us sick even if ego says not to let go, but the gut says yes.
How well we choose the right people who are in vibrational alignment with us not the ones we empathize so deeply for we end up sacrificing ourself so much it is harmful to us physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and financially.
How well we institute the RIGHT self-care practices that address the whole mind, body, and spirit.
To invest in our well-being for no other reason so we can shine our inner light brighter. This is not for superficial means for superficial instant gratification either.
How well we do not reach for a pill first or external fix for an internal problem that will only mask or create a band aid effect temporarily. Eventually, you will need to deal with your junk.
Learning to slow down a bit.
Learning to shut off the noise and propagandas shoved in our faces daily by those living in lower vibrations refusing to change or on a path driven by ego and greed.
How well we raise our vibrations in times of crisis.
How well we stay in vibrational alignment with our truth and purpose.
Wells, Maine where Laura liked to connect in nature and meditate. (c) 2016 Laura Healing With Spirit
So what is in for us in 2017?
I anticipate a rocky transition for some due to the cosmic climate. The year 2017 is a one year in numerology. What does that mean? Either you have been doing your work or not, that is up to you and your higher self. Next year is the year for new beginnings with a new cosmic cycle.
So you have a choice to write not only a new chapter in your book, but write a whole new book altogether. What do you choose? Are you going to write a new book or are you going to keep relooking and staying stuck in the last book you have read how many times?
I feel 2017 will focus us on two areas … our internal environment and spiritual development and the awakening of more truths combined with many external events we need to address and not bury our heads in the sand.
One of the signs Laura ususally receives from Spirit is hearts. Do you see the heart? This was taken in Maine (c) 2016 All Rights Reserved
I anticipate the energies to still feel like massive waves of various energies hitting us at various rates and intensities as we enter 2017 while we continue to have our physical bodies, emotional and mental bodies, and spiritual bodies adjust. These adjustments or recalibrations from my perspective are not only the cosmic vibrations to a higher dimension that is actually altering our very DNA structure, but affects how we balance the needs of the physical self with the needs of the spiritual self.
I feel it will take a few months depending on where you are at in your spiritual development to feel less rocky waves and a period of calmness. I feel the cosmic climate may also feel a little strange as we shift in between dimensional worlds depending on what sign you are and where you are at in your spiritual development. We may feel lapses in time, accelerations or time warps. Mood shifts or erratic behaviors may amplify and seem weird or out of the blue. As always, I say with preparation and awareness, you can shift your reactions and therefore, shift your results.
However, I caution, that the more your internal world is creating more peace and balance, you will be more awake than ever and certain truths if have not already been revealed, will continue to reveal themselves. When this happens it might not look pretty. Just like Keanu Reeves waking up in the film the Matrix, certain external “events” will need your call to action. I suggest you begin aligning yourself with an agenda to be a part of whether it be the homeless, “water is life” Dapl movement, human rights, affordable health, sustainable renewable energy, GMO, or the like as I feel these are all areas under attack that are asking you to choose your battle.
The peace you are developing within is also aligning you to a greater consciousness … and unity which is where the greatest power of all lies … Universal LOVE. It is from this place, you will become the greatest instrument of change.
There is NO greater power than the Universe itself. With that power you have ying/yang or in this case the power of love/fear. The next 10 years of the evolution of consciousness and how we all align will determine the fate of all humanity. Mother Earth has been asking for us to align with her. Many have heard her call. However, many also need to heed her warnings.
We can start today. On top of what I mentioned we can choose if we buy water from a company who aids in polluting our waters. We can choose to buy foods that are not the equivalent to eating arsenic making us ill. We can choose to shop and support your local farmer and retailer. We can choose to not put our monies in big banks that fund the destruction of our very resources that keep us alive and into smaller local banks or credit unions. We can choose to invest in energies that are better for our planet. We can choose to do random acts of kindness. We can choose to live in a more eco-friendly sustainable environment. Some of these take time, but at least it is a start.
The hawk feather Laura stumbled upon while on her meditative walk in Maine. (c) 2016 All Rights Reserved.
Miracles do happen to those who believe. Never forget that. See the hawk feather below? This is one of many signs Spirit gives me daily to guide me or to reassure me that I am on the right path.
It is important to keep the faith. Stay focused, and count our blessings not matter how difficult things may appear. New beginnings are just around the corner. It is time to spread your wings like the butterfly.
The Butterfly story
I heard this story about the butterfly and found it so profound, I want to share with you. I can not recall the source and will do my best to tell the story in hopes you find it equally as profound.
One day, this girl saw this caterpillar in her yard and she stopped for a moment to stare at it. She was neither disgusted nor in awe by this little creature. She was just curious as she watched it munch away on a leave of a plant in her yard. She thought she would help it by gathering more leaves to feed it. She got a little discouraged that it did not eat anything she had left for it. She was worried it was not eating enough.
On day she returned, and saw it was dangling from a branch, and did not know what to think. So for that day she left it alone. The next day she returned to check on her new caterpillar friend to see is struggling so hard inside this encasement, and it worried her so much. She ran home to tell her mother, but mom said not to bother.
The little girl was all frantic, and she was afraid for the little caterpillar and felt the need to save it somehow. So she found a knife and went back to check on her caterpillar friend once again, and it appeared to be violently struggling inside this encasement. Her pulse began to rise. Her breathing began to become rapid, and she began to panic. She thought to herself, that there must be something she can do to save the caterpillar.
So she did what she thought was the next best thing, she cut open the encasement to free her caterpillar from all the struggle. A very wet wing not fully developed fell out as well as what appeared to be a newly forming butterfly. The butterfly fell out and onto the ground. It attempted to move its very wet not fully formed wings, but could not.
The little girl wept, not knowing what to do. All she wanted was to help the little caterpillar so it did not have to be in pain or struggle so hard in that encasement. She thought what she was doing was trying to save it from its pains and struggles, but instead, the butterfly died as it was not fully developed and ready to fly.
Just like the caterpillar needed to make what may appear as a violent, painful struggle to become the caterpillar, so do our human souls.
It is time to complete the transformation and become the butterfly we were all meant to be. Are you ready?
The choice is yours to make. The Universe can keep giving you signs til you are blue in the face, but at the end of the day, it is you that must make the first step.
If we learn to surf these crazy energetic waves of change instead of fearing what wave will hit us next, we not only raise our vibration, but create the change and bring more joy.
There’s a Buddhist saying about mastering the art of calm in the middle of the storm. Together, we can make a better world. Here is our chance. The choice is yours to make.