Wow … this September new moon was a doozy for this empath, Pisces, and intuitive. I thought I would share with you my experience yesterday. How I pause and my processes leading up to this morning. I call it the #cantmakethisshitup story with signs.
The story may be different than yours, but I am curious to know if you’re experiencing anything similar maybe with signs or polarity or processing.
The Morning of Signs Begins
So yesterday I planned on doing a virtual new moon ceremony in our sister Facebook group “Reiki & Spiritual Enrichment With Laura Healing With Spirit”, AND … it never happened.
I started my morning early with a multitude of signs starting with cardinal/finch feather then a juvenile turkey feather and followed by a mourning dove feather all before 7am.
Then around noon time, I took the puppy for a walk to find a $5 bill in the parking lot. Ok signs? feathers? One? Two? Three? Four signs in a few hours? Now I think, something must be up and it is more than just the new moon or is it?
The energies this week with the uncontrolled fires on the west coast mirroring the anger and rage within the hearts of folks in the US had the trauma survivor, empath, and intuitive in me amped up with stuff coming at me from all different directions despite my feet firmly planted on the ground.
When to Pause
The veils have been quite thin since the sun entered its new solar cycle 25 and mars went retrograde. I can feel it. With this new moon hailed by astrologers to be one potentially a productive one, I saw opportunity, desire, and need for space for this new moon ritual, but something was not aligning.
When things are NOT flowing as easily or effortlessly as I had hoped in this process, I see this equally as a sign.
I recognized the power in the pause.
So I stopped.
I attempted to get myself in alignment to tap into the new moon as well as all the other crazy energies for vision and clarity and struggled a bit mostly because I wanted to go DEEP to ensure my egoic mind is NOT impeding.
However, there was lots of static creating lots of indecision.
When this happens I usually need alone time out in nature to quiet the static and listen to the whispers of the divine. This was ANOTHER sign that I was NOT to go through this process in a LIVE video, but needed to sit and work through this alone.
So I took Gracie (the 12 month old puppy I am fostering & rehabbing.) outside to accomplish 2 things.
1) to attempt more off leash training
2) to get myself grounded, centered and connected to the natural world around me. I know that when I access this, I access one of my so called super powers for the wisdom, clarity, and answers I seek.
Then THIS happened yesterday while outside …
… the 5th #sign of the day with MORE turkey. This one is an adult. The other from yesterday morning that I posted was juvenile.
Initiating The Processing
So I instantly gravitate to the juvenile Turkey feather & the adult one & think: “Does this mean that mother & daughter will finally be united and the justice scales begin to repair a long overdue injustice?”
“Does this mean that after 13 years, there might be a positive outcome that I had thought at one point was lost in this lifetime?”
As a trauma survivor and as someone who has experienced first hand systemic injustice and oppression, where the systems in place that on the surface were to protect people like myself and my children FAILED miserably.
If I couldn’t trust people nor myself back then, then who or what do I trust do I trust NOW?
This is where I learned the power of the pause where we can access the clarity, wisdom, and spiritual guidance aka the whispers from the soul that go beyond our logical mind that at times may seem incomprehensible.
SO I did what I have been doing for a long time. I stop. Paused and I went up … into spirit, God, the Universe or whatever divinity calls to you.
Beginning early 2009, I began my relationship with the divine in a new way through signs. I recall the experience as if it were yesterday driving and seeing angels in the sky.
That particular story is too long to share, and I will share that experience with you another time. Let’s just say, it changed my whole trajectory
Receiving signs from the divine have taught me so much since then. The first lesson I got from that initial experience was “Stop, pause and listen for they will guide you”. This was the message I heard from that first time seeing my first sign.
A deep healing needed to happen. The kind I was blinded from seeing at the time due to the protective mother hypervigilance of fight/flee/freeze that resulted in complex post traumatic stress disorder or CPTSD. So I improved my skill sets. Addressed and healed the wounds and continue to do still today. I don’t believe we are ever done. We just get better at addressing and healing them is all.
So yesterday was one of those days. I stopped. I paused. I open the gates to the awareness beyond what my eyes can see, my ears can hear, and my body can sense.
Turkey medicine has so much to offer and has been one of those message bearers that has been with me on/off through this journey.
Turkey are most known symbolically associated with abundance and reflect an energy of sharing.
Turkey has been showing up STRONG since right before I found out what happened with my family. I guess time will reveal itself these truths soon enough.
I’ve learned to NOT expect an absolute truth over the years, but more of a process like putting pieces to a larger puzzle together for a different picture than maybe originally thought.
Turkey is sometimes called the earth eagle with rooted connections to our great Mother, inner vision and the 12mo cycles and is one of the most adaptable birds.
It also reminds me of a very powerful PBS documentary I watched a few years ago called “My Life As A Turkey”
And finally, some indigenous mythologies talk about how Turkey can fight off evil spirits. Hmmmmm I wonder if this is what I need to listen to. The sitting. Pausing. Allowing. Processing will reveal when it is time what is needed to be known.
This is not something we can force, but align with and allow the flow of the process to commence in a sacred partnership.
The Eagle & The Master 22 Number
This morning as I woke up writing about this experience, I lost track of time, and was late to our FB LIVE event.
What I discovered was today is a master 22 number in numerology with eagle as the spiritual medicine.
The 22 is one of three master numbers in numerology that is about uniting the spiritual world with the material world in a four year in numerology – a number holding true to its energy as a “work” year balancing the egoic mind with the spirit – in a ninth month on the sixth day.
How Does It All Tie In Together?
ALL SIGNS if read like a sentence that says to continue to build and work on the relationship with spirit side of you. That all those things that have been surfacing for you this year from either a past trauma, generational link, karmic tie, past life experience will be closing this chapter soon.
As the eagle showed us this morning, there are no obstacles, only opportunities. The eagle does not need to fly into the storm. It can fly above the storm.
As we move forward, we need to be in conscious partnership with spirit on equal footing as things continue to amp up. The veils are thin right now which is giving us a prime opportunity to co-create with the divine.
These so called signs are an indication and invitation from spiritual world to embrace the courage that will help us choose the kind of freedom we are actually seeking.
I get it …. of coarse we do not have time, enough sleep or enough money …. we never will. If the time is NOT now with the earth literally burning, the waters polluted, nature poisoned by humans, the masses of folks enraged … then when?
Remember turkey is the the earth eagle that helps us stay grounded in the material world reminding us of the abundance that is coming. The eagle can soar the skies while seeing the smallest detail with precision without losing track of the larger picture.
This new moon was a doozy, but with the pause and silencing the mind, I got a clearer direction and validation that the choices made so far were the correct ones.
Are you able to pause and take it in these new moon energies?
Do you sit in a new moon ritual or ceremony?
Please share your experience with me in the comments below.
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